hurm...msti korang nak tau apa personal story saya kan...
saya ada kapel ngan sorg jejaka yg bagi saya dia sngt baik...nak tau knapa saya ckp dia baik...??
sbb spnjng saya kapel ngan dia...dia sngt hormat ngan saya spnjng kami kapel...I mean...dia x pnah nak cba sntuh tngn saya...n one more thing that I still remember till this day and I will never forget it is when he want to gave a ring that my frien borrow from me...she pass it to him and then he gave that ring by himself and he put on the table and sliding that ring to me...
for your information...kami hnya kapel dlm msa SEBULAN jer...korang dpat byng kan tak....DLAM MASA SEBULAN...apa yang ada dalam masa sebulan 2 tuk cipta memori indah antara kami...2 pun klau dikira balik...maybe our relationship in TWO WEEKS ONLY...can you imagine it if you are in my own placed at that time...nak nngis pun mcm mo nda mo jak...maybe my sorrow may be difficult to be expressed by facial expression...sampai kat rumah, bru la saya terasa mcm nak nangis...nsib la tyme 2 tak kantoi ngan m parents....dorg langsung x tau psl this relationship...nak tau knapa saya nangis kat rumah...sbb saya btul2 terasa khilangan dia tyme 2...takde org nak sms saya mlm2...
sbb wlaupun dlm 1 bulan tu...two weeks our relationship tergantung gtu je coz kami akan mnduduki peperiksaan tak lama lgi...so I can accept his decision because he already said that our relationship akan bersambung balik lps exam...tpi saya tnggu pnya tnggu x jgak dia bwa blik kapel...I honestly have to say that I hope our relationship will return as before...but the results that I get from him is he wants to break up with me for reasons his mother does not require him having an affair with the woman of the same age with him because before this he ever hurt by girls of the same age with him too....
from that day...I tried to hate him and try my best to put up the wall between him and me...and you want to know smeting...????
I managed to do what I want...congrats for me...hehehehe...
but it only lasted for one year only...
do you know why...????
because...
dia dtng blik pada saya lps dia break ngan gf dia...so dia try tuk bka hati saya blik 2k trima dia...hurm...asalnya...mmang saya x cair ngan setiap perkataan and perbuatan dia yg boleh mencairkan hati perempuan...( dia seorg yg bermulut manis )...
tpi bila kwn 2bnyk tlng dia tuk dpt kan aku n trima dia blik, aku jdi cair ngan apa yg member aku ckp psl apa yg ex bf saya 2 ckp...
erm...
jnji n kat2 di tu adalah 1 rhsia antara kami...yg pnting kata2 dia tu mmbuatkan saya confident 2k mmbina hbngn yg baru sekali lagi ngan dia...
tpi di saat pntu hati saya betul2 dah terbuka tuk dia, tiba2 dia bwat onar plak tyme 2...
hurm...dia bwat saya ni mcm saya anak patung la plak yg mcm teda perasaan...dia cba lgi pikat the other girl...tak tau knapa...maybe dia dah pnat nak tnggu saya kot...
korang tau tak perasaan bila dah dilukai 2x...apa rsa nya...sakit kan...bila saya dah berjaya bina tembok antara dia ngan saya yg mnghalang saya drpd trus menyaynginya, dia sngt2 mudah 2k pcahkan nya n akhirnya hati saya dibiarkan bersepah mcm 2 jer...
and korg dpt byngkan x bila org yg korg syg tpi korg blm kapel lgi la...ckp yg korg yg terhegeh2 ngan dia sdangkan dah terang2 dia jnji mcm2 ngan korg...n 2 la apa yg dia ckp ngan kwn2 dia...btpa jtuh nya maruah saya tyme 2 bila dia ckp ngan kwn2 dia...
n saya dngr2 yg dia ckp bila saya sepetkan mata saya, saya nmpk mcm org gila seks...full of lust...n bnda ni pun dia ckp ngan kwn2 dia...mcm saya ni mainan la plak bwat dia ngan kwn2 dia...sepa yg x kecik hti beb...hnya Tuhan jak yg tau apa perasaan saya tyme 2...
hurm...tpi saya terfikir jgk...maybe dia bwat cmtu smata- mata dia xnak saya ska kan dia lgi...2 saya x tau plak apa pncnya...
tpi saya x nak la slh kan dia 100%...dia baik sbnrnya...tpi dia akan bertukar mnjdi org yg sngt kurang ajar apabila dia dah x tahan ngan apa yg org kta kan psl dia...bila smeting yg dia x bwat org kta dia bwat...dia akan lakukan perbuatan yg org ckp 2 wlaupun bnda 2 akan mmbwa kpd kslhn yg sngt besar...
for example...
bila org kata dia merokok, sdngkan dia x merokok...tpi bila org rmai bnyk ckp dia 2 merokok...jdi dia akan btul2 merokok sehingga lah dia kna tngkp olh lmbaga disiplin sklh asalkan dia puas hati utk tnjkkn sma org yg cakap dia merokok 2...
and salah 1 sbb dia bwat saya mcm 2 maybe... atas kesilapan saya sndiri n maybe kslpn kwn2 saya yg main lepas je...tpi ini x bermakna yg kwn saya ni jahat...tpi saya rsa sngt bertuah sngt sbb ada org yg protect saya bila saya kna ' buli '...slalu ada di sisi saya bila saya dlm kesusahan n di saat ska & duka saya, mereka sntiasa ada...
and terima kasih 2 my ex boyfriend...bcoz of him I know what love is...saya sempat rsa indah nya percintaan bersama dengan dia wlaupun skjp...saya mula mengenali erti rndu, menyayangi n disayang...thanks ye...saya harap awak akan bhgia bersama kapel bry awak...n awak x perlu risau lagi...saya akan terus padam awak dri hdup saya sepertimna awak buang saya pda 1 ketika dahulu...
I will...forget you...
I will forget you. Starting today,
I don't know you. I have never seen you.
We never even walked pass eachother.
I'm okay. I forgot everything. I'm happy with my busy life.
I've met a great person too.
Love is always like this. It fades away after some time.
Can't even remember it, Oh.
When love goes away, another love comes again. It definitely will.
Even if it hurts now, it will hear a little later.
It will forget. I will too.
It's not difficult. I will forget everything after today.
I'm just getting used to my changed life. Oh~ No.
Love is always like this. It fades away after some time.
Can't even remember it. Yes~
soo...
itu jak la yg saya nak kongsi ngan korg...harap lps ni saya blh lpa kan ex saya...help me k...and I hope korang tak bnci jejaka ni n tak bnci mna2 jejaka d dunia ni...sbb saya yakin dirg bwat bnda tu smua msti ada alsn yg tersendiri...n maybe dgn perpisahan ni mnunjukkan mngkin ex kapel korg 2 not born to be yours...ok...
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